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Dec
20

Christmas Longings

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I slept and awakened and slept and awakened and slept and awakened.  The dream of my mother, lost and confused by Alzheimer’s, played over and over in my sleep.

I awakened to a flood of emotions. Both love for my mother and an overwhelming sense of my lack of ability to help her washed over me.

Drawn to the place where I last left her, I made my way on the hour-long trip to the cemetery. Stopping to buy some Christmas flowers, I felt annoyed by the small talk I couldn’t escape. I longed to be alone with my emotions.

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dreams really do come trueDreams, desires, and hope inspire us, move us forward, and ignite our hearts and souls with purpose and passion. Sometimes the fire inside us burns like a well-stoked fire providing slow steady warmth. At other times, these dreams and desires erupt as if a match had been thrown onto the driest of fields. And then there are the times when we find the embers of hope in our souls to be barely burning. We become dry, empty; the fire of our hearts smothered out by discouragement and the loss of hope. The “When, God, when?” times. The times Proverbs describes as hope deferred resulting in heartsickness.

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Dec
20

Christmas Longings

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godwithusAs I enter the home stretch of the holiday season, I am feeling a muddle of emotions. Tinges of sadness mixed with moments of excitement are dancing around with sighs of relief and bits of regrets. So much is demanded of us all during this time of year. There are presents to be bought, gifts to be wrapped, cards to be sent, food to be cooked, events to attend. And all this on top of everyday life.

It’s always about this time of the month, the home stretch, when I begin to feel that one day soon I am going to be sitting down with my cup of coffee and a good book and breathing in some down time. It’s the almost-and-yet-not-quite-home stretch. The just-one-more-gift-to-buy, one-more-thing-I-forgot, one-more-thing-to-check-off-the-list, I’m-almost-done-feeling. The if-I-can-just-get-through-one-more-busy-day kind of emotion. The I-can-hang-on-one-more-day-even-though-I’m-exhausted-because-I-know-it’s-almost-here kind of tiredness.

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Dec
09

The Birth of a Son

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IMG_5440Thirty-one years ago on this day, my first born arrived. (Happy Birthday, Andrew!) Due on Christmas Day, Andrew got some help arriving early because I had toxemia.

Having a child changed my life. Overwhelming love surged through my heart. Life suddenly became so much different. I was responsible for taking care of Andrew. I read every book I could find on parenting. I dedicated myself to feeding him right, providing every kind of opportunity for him to be happy, healthy, and smart. I bought those educational toys, the ones with the right colors and movements that would insure my child would be all he could be. I sang to him, rocked him, cuddled him, and adored him.IMG_3329IMG_6960

I remember wanting his world to be perfect. I never wanted him to cry or experience pain.

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myrrhI love meaningful gifts. What’s a meaningful gift? For me, it’s a gift that says you know me. You understand at least some of the essence of who I am. And it cannot be dishtowels. My hubby and kids all know that I hate getting dishtowels for Christmas (lol, can you tell that I get dishtowels every year from a certain beloved relative?)

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